Wow..

Well.. it's been a minute. The last couple of days have really not changed. I'm still bored, I still consider whether I should through a gothic faze and start cutting my wrist, that might satisfy me for entertainment. Just kidding. The people around, family mostly & this one kid I call my boyfriend, have really been annoying me. I mean my mom has been putting more elbow grease into this wedding then a mechanic. What the heck? While I'm over here needing stuff for senior year like GETTING MY SENIOR PICTURES TAKEN HELLO!, she's out there looking at bridemaids dressing and making all kind of finalizations (if that's even a word). But I know I shouldn't be selfish but I mean it's not her freakin wedding so why the hell is she so damn involved. I often wonder if she'll do this much for my wedding. I always used to think that she favored my brother more but it's no biggie now because me and my dad have always been the closest anyways. It just hurts sometimes when my brother used to get away with skipping class, coming home late, GETTING SOME RANDOM GIRL PREGNANT, and barely getting out of highschool but yet I'm hounded when I tell my mom we need to have "the talk". You know the "talk" about s..e..x.. yeah, that talk. And before I could even get any more words out she's like, "What do we need to talk for, you're waiting until you're married!" As if I had no other choice. I can honestly say I don't think I'll wait til I'm married because... what if I never get married. DUH! Anyways everything seems to be going "KABLOOM" and getting crappier by the second...